Lessons.

So it's 2012 and what have I learned? Well, a lot.


Life.
I can't comment on your life. I can't tell you how good or bad it is. I can give you my opinion and that's it. Life is what you make it out to be.
If you want to be something, be it.
If you want to do something, do it.
If you want to find something, find it.
If you want to change something, change it.
It's really that simple. You can argue all you want that life is hard and it's fucked and I can't be bothered. But that's all bullshit. If you're reading this, chances are you have a computer. If you've got a computer you're doing pretty bloody well compared to people in third world countries. Whenever life get's you down you have to remember that your life could always be worse. Whatever is happening to you right now that's so bad, could be 100 times worse. So be grateful that it isn't that way and that it's only as bad as it is.

I cut my foot, oh shit. I cut my foot off, OH SHIT.

I don't necessarily know you or anything about you for that matter but I can promise you that you have a good life. You have people that love you immensely and people that are interested by you and want to get to know you. You are never truly alone in this life. You are only alone if you force yourself to be. If you choose to deliberately push everyone around you, then that's the only time you will ever be alone. Try and avoid doing that.


Sorry.
I have said 'sorry' more times in 2011 then I ever have in my entire life previously. Did I stuff up a lot?
Yeh, probably.
Do people push to hard and make you give in for things you didn't really do?
Yeh, probably.
The thing here is that it doesn't matter how many times you say sorry, if you want to make something better you'll say it as many times as you have to. If you don't care and you want to lose people, then you won't bother. If you're on the other end of things, you need to say 'It's ok, don't worry about it'. Every time. Every freaking time. You know why?

Because this life is so short and so precious that we don't have time to hate, to hold grudges, to have fights, to argue and bicker and be unhappy. You only have time to laugh, love and be happy. Everything else is your choice.

Why be angry at someone when you can get over it and be happy instead? Yes, they fucked up. But as if you haven't? Just as many times, if not more than them. That's not fair. Forget and let live. Move past things that are not important, that are not worth your time. Get on with your life.


You.
I have learnt the hard way that sometimes you have to do things for you. You have to ignore people and do what's right for you. If you're anything like me, you like to help people. It is so mentally hard to try and ignore someone else’s feelings to put yours first. If someone is clinging to you and using you for all your amazing qualities and giving nothing back, they are drowning you. You need to keep your head above water. You can't forget how you feel and let someone drown you. Once you drown, it's freaking hard to try and surface again. I'm not saying stuff everyone else, do what you have to do. I'm trying to say you can't give everything to everyone and you need to accept that. When you NEED to take time for you, or do something for you then that's what you do. If you're in a relationship that's killing you, then you need to let go. You can't be everything for someone. No matter how hard you try or how much you do. You will never be someone’s everything.


Fix.
I like to invent things and fix things, it's in my nature. You sometimes have to realize though that you can't always fix things. Some things are just too far gone or just broken, perhaps they need more than your knowledge to fix them, perhaps they are just irreparable. You need to learn when to stop and give up wasting time trying to fix things that are not your job or that are out of your power. I bet you are an amazing person and you have a million amazing qualities but you are restricted just like everyone else. Sometimes you need other people to help you. You don't have to do everything on your own, or by yourself. You can call on help and fix things together. Just like with a relationship, you can't be in it to fix someone. You're not doing them any favors, you're making them dependant on you. When you think you've fixed them and you try to leave, you'll only make things worse. All you can do is pray that all the things you did for them, they remember and take away with them into their life. That they try to grow up and they try to use the knowledge you gave them.


Exception.
Always, always, always be the exception to the rule. Do not be afraid to be different. Never do something just because or because everyone else did it or it's just the done thing. Fuck that. Do what you want in life. Never worry about what other people think. You are your own person and you need to be happy with yourself before other people will like you. If you pretend to be something or someone you're not then people won't really like you for who YOU are. They'll like you for how good of an actor you are instead. They will never truly know the real you and if you do it long enough you'll even forget who that is. Never lose sight of yourself or of what you want. Life is an amazing gift, better than anything else you will ever be given. Make good use of the best present you will ever get.



Take a risk.
Do things for yourself.
Apologize.
Accept.
Move forward.
Give up.
Don't give up.
Don't stop living.
Be yourself.
And always, without a doubt, undoubtedly, undeniably, unquestionably, indisputably, constantly,
Love.